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| Friday, October 21st, 2005 | | 2:17 pm |
Kuwait
Well guys... I can't write in my Myspace account from here (restricted site) so I am going to post a few things in here: 1st... I don't have the mailing addy on hand, so hold your horses... I'll get it eventually. 2nd... Kuwait is fun, but I will be in Iraq soon enough, so I will take my time with a grain of salt. 3rd... yeah... I miss all of you. Ok, well, thats all I really have time for right now, talk to you all when I get some money. Take care everyone. Teh Rhine0 (yeah, like that Seano) Current Mood: bored | | Saturday, June 11th, 2005 | | 11:41 pm |
new blog
I have a new "everything" site that I am part of. It is called MySpace. Im sure most of you have heard of it. Join it now! I command thee. Oh yeah, my area is http://www.myspace.com/seitler so check it out. Later peeps | | Thursday, June 9th, 2005 | | 7:15 pm |
Collins College
So yeah, I just got my acceptance letter from Collins College today. Now I just have to wait and see how much I get in financial aide. I know I will be getting about 30k from Military Tuition Assistance, but not sure where the other 26k is going to come from. All I know is that I should be startting on the 26th of this month. OH SHITTY. I forgot to call the realestate lady to get that all worked out.. that isn't good. Heay, any one wanna come down and help me out with an appartment? I am going to need to fiond some one to room with while im out there going to school. It is only going to be about 25-45 minutes away from Phoenix. Yeah, common Eddie... gotta hurry up and get back here buddy. We are going to have a hellova good time when you get back. Current Mood: bouncy | | Wednesday, June 8th, 2005 | | 6:23 pm |
Short Story
Was going to send this out to select perople, untill I realized that it is selfish to keep something like this away from everyone. Definitely read this. =======---------=======---------=======- --------=======---------=======--------- =======---------=======--------- THIS IS A REALLY COOL STORY AND NOTICE AT THE END THE DATE THE CANDLE WAS STARTED. GONNA GIVE YOU GOOSE BUMPS. I am not going to be the one who lets it die. I found it believable -- angels have walked beside me all my life--and they still do (even when I didn't acknowledge them or God) . A young university student was home for the summer. She had gone to visit some friends one evening and time passed quickly as each shared their various experiences of the past year. She ended up staying longer than planned, and had to walk home alone. She wasn't afraid because it was a small town and she lived only a few blocks away. As she walked along under the tall elm trees, Diane asked "God" to keep her safe from harm and danger. When she reached the alley, which was a shortcut to her house, she decided to take it. However, halfway down the alley she noticed a man standing at the end as though he were waiting for her. She became uneasy and began to pray, asking for God's protection. Instantly a comforting feeling of quietness and security wrapped around her, she felt as though someone was walking with her. When she reached the end of the alley, she walked right past the man and arrived home safely. The following day, she read in the newspaper that a young girl had been raped in the same alley just twenty minutes after she had been there. Feeling overwhelmed by this tragedy and the fact that it could have been her, she began to weep. Thanking the Lord for her safety and to help this young woman, she decided to go to the police station. She felt she could recognize the man, so she told them her story. The police asked her if she would be willing to look at a lineup to see if she could identify him. She agreed and immediately pointed out the man she had seen in the alley the night before. When the man was told he had been identified, he immediately broke down and confessed. The officer thanked Diane for her bravery and asked if there was anything they could do for her. She asked if they would ask the man one question? Diane was curious as to why he had not attacked her. When the policeman asked him, he answered, Because she wasn't alone. She had two tall men walking on either side of her." Moral of the story: Don't underestimate the power of Prayer! Gives ya goose bumps, doesn't it! This is to all of you who mean something to me, I pray for your happiness. The Candle Of Love, Hope & Friendship () |---| |---| |---| |---| |---| |---| |---| This candle was lit on the 15th of September, 1998. Someone who loves you has helped keep it alive by sending it to you. Don't let The Candle of Love, Hope and Friendship die! Pass It On To All Of Your Friends and Everyone You Love! May God richly bless you as you send this story on. Please keep this candle alive Current Mood: chipper | | Thursday, June 2nd, 2005 | | 8:48 pm |
Tomarrow!!!
The sun will come out, Tomarrow.... lol, lets gope so, I need some good news. I have my interview with the college rep from Collins College tomarrow. If all goes well, I may be taking courses by the end of this month. It will be hard to get in, but if possible, you know I'll be there!! No more work untill I graduate baby. Lets pray that it works out for me. I took the day off tomarrow, after waking up tuesdqay throwing up blood, it only left me with a two day work week this week. And boy was that nice! I can't wair to not have to work any more. That is te ultimate dream/goal right there. I hope everyone out there is doing well, and shoot me a message some time if you wanna talk. Well, take care everyone. God Bless you all. Current Mood: hopeful | | Monday, May 30th, 2005 | | 7:48 pm |
Masturbation....
I, after just getting finished, have realized how much I dilike masterbation. You get nothing but a few moments of bliss out of it with nothing there to really make you feel good. I always feel dirty after doing it, which makes me wander why I do it so often? I hate having a huge sex drive, I just want something small untill I find the girl I want to be with. I think I am going to stop masterbating for as long as possible. I will see exactly how strong my will is by doing this. I have a feeling I will be able to with hold for a long time, because I am saying I can and I wanna test myself on being honest with myself. Bubye Jenna Haze, Jameson, Bye Jill Kelly, Bye Asia Carrera, by Heather Brooke, and bye masterbation. Maybe I will come out of this feeling better about myself, only God knows. Maybe, just maybe, This will help me feel better about myself. I can only pray it does. Ah, so much on my mind.... I have a meeting tomarrow. Wander if I'll be able to get up for work wednesday morning... no choice in that. I need to attend my meetings because I am done trying to get by working these boring regulare jobs. Also, who out there... if anyone reads this, would be interested in helping my build a Game Designing Company? I already have two others that I know would jump at the offer if I help them once I get my degree and caan teach them how to use the software. And how to do coding. I need others that alreadyy have a knowledge in the matter. This isn't going to happen soon, but we can get the plans finished, so when the time comes, all we have to do is register everything and we'll be off and running!!! Yeah, GD is coming... for those of you who know what that stands for, then you will be the few that I will be helping out along the way. If you dont, I may still help you, if I like you ;) Current Mood: nauseatedCurrent Music: still... the hum of my fan | | 4:55 pm |
Sometimes...
Now, I know that Im not always going to be stuck in this stupid rut that Im in. It can't be this bad forever, and if it is I really wish God would end it for me now so I dont have to suffer through it all. I really don't want to think like that, but it just seems that every effort I put forth an equal or greater effort is pushing against me. It's alot like physics, but I dont feel like going into that, because Im not familiare with the terms anymore. I Just want to know *when* am I going to see a change in things? I dont want the normal work-style for me! I am not the type of person to slave away doing something that isn't going to benefit me or my future family (which is why I dont want ot die yet. I haven't even seen the smile on my kids faces) I know eventually things will get better, I know me and a few of my buddies are going to hit it big. I know the 'our' game company will grow to be one of the best in the industry. I just want to know when am I going to see that first ray of light come over the horizon. I know now, the person that I thought I was meant to be with, wont be there cause she isa lieing bitch. The other girl I was hoping to be there, well she's going to over there, and not here. I don't know who will share the rewards of my pain-in-the-ass-drive I have, but I know my stuborness is going to pay off. I have a meeting with a college admissions rep on friday, and am trying to get a good friend of mine to get me a meeting with a lady that owns a real estate agency. I am going to see if she'd sponsor me through realestate school if i signed something stating that I'd work for her company for x amount of months... On a normal posted note, work blows nuts. I might not have a job after tomarrow, depending on what that asshole supervisor of mine says. I really dont know where I am going to find a job, I might have to go back to Fast food. I really dont want to. But if it gets me a place to live, then so be it. I have to go to Mesa this weekend for drill. I hope they are there this time. I'd really hate to get up there and not be able to see anyone there. Yeah, cause you know how much that sux? A whole lot!!! God bless everyone on this special day. May he bestowe greater rewards on all of you than I myself have recieved. I am not in this for me, but for all of you whom I do care about. Peace not greed. Current Mood: discontentCurrent Music: The hum of my fan in the corner of my room | | Wednesday, May 18th, 2005 | | 3:39 pm |
Argh....
I dont know how, but my buddies up in michigan actually remembered me!! They sent down a "hope everything is good" card out of the blue. I got it yesterday and it brightened up my day. I am going to see SW:Ep III on sat cause I don't have the time to do it thursday or friday. I can't wait to see Anikan kill all of those pussy ass "good" jedi. Let the darkness consume you! Anyways, live life to the fullest. Like me!! I stayed home today because I was all tired and run down from work, so I took the day off. I will make it up saturday, was going to work saturday anyways. I can't wait to not have to work anymore. It's only a few months away.... a long few, but a few none-the-less. To those who are generous, God will provide wealth. To those how give water to others, God will make watered. Proverbs 11:25 Current Mood: peacefulCurrent Music: Classical 90.5 (UofA Classical) | | Monday, May 16th, 2005 | | 8:58 pm |
Why!?!?!?
Why can't I figure out my own heart. I mean, it is mine, but it's like I dont own it. It doesn't listen. I don't want to hurt her but I have no choice. If I don't leave, she'll hurt me. I will be a friend for her, but nothing more... atleast not right now. She needs to settle her life first. If something else that seems wounderful comes along in that time, then thats where I'm spose to be. I just hope that she doesn't hate me for life, I really don't want that because I do love her, and probably always will, atleast a little bit. I miss you. I misss that short day in at Coney Island. I know a lot more could have come from that if I weren't such a goof, but who knows.... Maybe you will be the one. Maybe not... I really dont care anymore and thats a problem. Thanks for your words tonight... they'll will help me for sure. Seano, Who's Jessie, and are you really Gay now? I wasn't sure who I was taling to earlier, but I am confused!? Savor that moment, cause it doesn't happen very ofter. I'd just like to say to everyone really quick, I've found God. I know he exists, but I doubt he wants you to follow a certain religion. Have faith, and give thanks to him in your own way. Just don't disbelieve. She trust, for he is there. And for those of you who know, read Proverbs 11:25, that is a very good statement. Current Mood: Dazzed and ConfuseedCurrent Music: Nothing | | Tuesday, March 29th, 2005 | | 10:45 pm |
March 28th meeting
WOW, I went to the first Tucson TEAM open meeting ever! I can't believe how many people were there. For no weekly's out here, 25 - 30 people is awsome. I got a chance to meet some new people. One in particular, Laura, has given me some info on house demo that they do to keep up with eachother. George Guzzardo blew the roof off of that place. He is such a good speaker, I hope to be able to have his presence soon. I know I will if I work at it. ======================================== ==== Now, as for personal life, well. Still no callbacks for a job! Been waiting for the last 5 weeks for a callback! Just call me JOBS!!!! I need gas money!!!! My mom is going to school to get her CDL. Yep, she is going to be a trucker! Thats nutz, but I have confidence in her. I know she'll do it. I do have an interview at Target to be a security guard. Yep, I'l be like the ones from "South Park" if any know which episode I'm talking about. I have been doing a whole lot of landscaping work around my house. There are so many weeds, you'd never know we are in a desert! I hate these weeds. I hate all the plant life out here. Everything out here likes to poke and prick you. I mean, COM'ON even the grass fights back! I will not go out barefoot here at all. I am still waiting on my orders to come in from the Army. My unit hasn't gotten em down to me and Im starting to wander where they're at. Oh yeah, Im getting better on my dirt-bike. I know its not hard to ride on pavement, thats easy. To ride in dirt is hard though. Considering I've never drove a bike before, nor drove clutch, it was hard to learn how to take off without stalling all the time. If you have never driven a bike, then don't make an asshole comment. If you have drove before, and want to make an asshole comment, i'll jusr not read it. Either way, "At Globo Gym; We're better than you are, and we know it." ======================================== ==== ===OK, feelings about people right now: (short version):==== ======================================== ==== Meaghan: Hope you are doing better, but you are still a cock-tease Christie: Still want you, but will have to wait Chris Hess: Go powerplayer and get down here Jason Hess: Go powerplayer and get down here TJ: Keep it rockin up there, see you soon Ryan: Show the plan, Show the plan, show the plan Shawn: Sounded dead-tired on vCom, You ok? Julie: ---um---well--- yeah? Shara: it will get better Tracy: Showin' you the plan soon Eddie: Are you done yet!? If you aren't mentioned, then you should talk to me more. It's not my fault you aren't on my mind. Sorry bout your luck. Current Mood: hopefulCurrent Music: CD-PPS 7 (TEAM Lingo) | | Tuesday, February 8th, 2005 | | 11:04 am |
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Off to AZ
Yes!!! I leave today! I am off to the sun and warmth yet again. I am really going to push for this business to work because I have been getting hints from that someone that if I could support her untill she got out and found some work she'd move down there with me. That is some HUGE inscentive for me to get out there and get moving. ======================================== ===== Once I can support the both of us, I will offer to fly her out to me and get everything on going. ======================================== ===== My biggest hope is that she is the one. I have been waiting for so long now, and if she turns out o be the one and I have found her this soon in my life then I will finally be able to say that I am completely happy. I would never have to dream about that person again. Once I start getting somewhere again then I am going to see how she feels about kids. I cant wait to be able to support a family. And I feel that when I have complete freedom to offer then she will really warm up to the idea of being able to stay home and raise the kids and all of that. Yes, Im already thinking of that cause Im a very deep guy and some may think that I am a little out there, but I dont care cause that's how I am and I don't care anymore about how others view me!!!!!!!! ======================================== ===== Now I must get off of here. I think that I am really going to make this work out there in AZ. Watch out, cause when I do finally get this rolling nothing is going to stop me, EVER! Bye Michigan, I'll be back to claim the one I have fallen for. We will all be better off in about 2 years. Wait and see~~~ ======================================== ===== BEST WISHES TO THE TEAM FROM AZ Current Mood: determinedCurrent Music: Gavin DeGraw | | Wednesday, February 2nd, 2005 | | 2:09 pm |
LONG TIME
Its been a long time since I updated this post. I figured that I'd get on here and let everyone know the thoughs running through my head right now! ======================================== ===================== First and foremost, I think I may have found, well actually reassociated myself, with the girl of my dreams or atleast the "one" I've been waiting for. I know, it sux because I'm leaving for AZ on the 8th and Im not going to see her for a while again. I just found out that she has had a crush on me for the last 3 years. But I have been gone and out of the state for a while. Now I am moving to AZ to expand my business (i'll explain a little more, later). I can't wait for it to work out because once I achieve my goals then I'll finally be able to stop and smell the roses, and maybe her perfume if Im lucky. I would just love to be able to be with her, but right now it just can't happen and I'm nearly in tears writing this. It is so hard to let all of this out and not be able to go and grab her and hold on to her forever. I hope, no, I promise, once I get to where Im going I will get her to come along for the ride. I really want someone like her in my life and really want to be with her. ======================================== ====================== I know that last post is going to hurt some ones feelings in AZ, but it is truely how I feel. I had tried to put her out of my mind for the past 2 years, but the feelings for her, as soon as I saw her again, had resurged. We hung out today and I finally felt like I was in total harmony with myself. Untill that is, I remembered I am moving. That sent my emotions into the floor. Ofcourse, I couldn't let her see the true depth of my feelings cause I'm a guy with a strong will, so I just made up some lame excuse. Im sure that, because she is very intelligent, saw through it and saw the true reason I was looking like that. So, Julie, I'm sorry babe, but my feelings aren't as strong as I thought they were for you. Even if me and this girl up here never get together, I know that I will never be completely happy with you. Harsh words, yes; but truer than most anything I have said in the last 10 minutes to myself. Now I shed a tear for lost and found, and lost in the same breath, love. ======================================== ======================= Now, the business I spoke of. It is called TEAM and I am getting ready to rain upon Tucson and Marana with it. I am going to expand it out that way because it is all but open out there. If you are interested in; Having Fun, Making Money, anf Making a Difference send me a message and I'll fill you in with the details needed to come aboard. ATTENTION: Only serious people need apply. This is not for everyone and we don't ask for everyone to join. We do not recruit you, we mearly ask you if you are interested in bettering you and your families' lives. ======================================== ======================= Yes, I said early that I am moving back to AZ. I am leaving tuesday the 8th, and trying to send my stuff down there tomarrow. It is going to cost a shit load of money but I am lucky that I have enough to move with. I am going to be looking for a J.O.B. (J.ust A.bove B.roke) when I get down there to support me while I am building my business. So if anyone has a good job lined up out that way let me know. Well, Im done for now, I might write again before I leave, maybe not. I am going to be hanging out with that girl again on Friday, but mainly for business. I may have to sign her up in the business just to make it easier to keep in touch with her. Hehehe, but she claims to be really busy with school and work and she's also a tutor (just the type of hard worker I'd like working with me). Hope to have you onboard soon sweety ;) ======================================== ======================== This is me saying by.... "The past is not a Phoenix, it doesn't come back to life on it own; We are the Necromancers of the past, we ressurect it back." Current Mood: disappointedCurrent Music: Ciara: 1,2 Step | | Friday, December 17th, 2004 | | 3:15 pm |
Im back
I finally am back from AIT. I got back Wed. night, but didn't feel like writing on here at that time. So i am updating now. I forgot a lot about computers while I was gone, so I have to relearn most of the stuff that I use to know. Well, eMail me at Xzandelar@yahoo.com if you want to talk cause I forgot my gMail account info. | | Sunday, October 3rd, 2004 | | 1:48 am |
At Ft. Lee, VA :(
Well, I thought that this place was going to be simple for me to get through, guess I was sorely mistaken!! I can't believe how hard it is to get back into to the swing of things now that I have been away for a year!! I am actually going to talk to DS Sandlain (my Platoon DS) and see if I can talk to the Chaplin about getting chaptered out of the military. I don't really care how it happens just as long as I get out! I am seriously going nutz right now because I cant focus, and I just don't care about all this shit anymore. I NEED OUT, I MUST GET OUT, I WILL FIND A WAY OUT, OR ILL TAKE MYSELF OUT!!!!! (on a good note, I like the new layout of the site. This is my first time on here in 2 weeks almost) Oh yeah, I ran into Mike Benjimin here like my first day here. He said he'd be home in 3 weeks then, and that was 2 weeks ago! Luck ass bastard. Current Mood: just fucking nutzCurrent Music: the crying inside my head | | Sunday, September 19th, 2004 | | 10:12 pm |
Gone for a While...
Well, tonight is the last night that i'll be sleeping in my home for a while. W have to leave tomarrow for AIT, so this is the last update for a while. You all dont read anyways so I really dont care anyways, but i do it for my piece of mind. Later, and good wishes to everyone. | | Friday, September 17th, 2004 | | 9:29 am |
Do you have excess body fat??
Hello All, haven't updated this for a while, and it is about to be even longer because I am leaving for AIT on tuesday. Bahhh, I am getting those nervous jitters that you get right before doing something big. Plus I know once I am finished that I am going to get activated, if I don't voluntarily go active. Yeah, I get to stay in the Troy Marriot or something like that the night before I leave, which is going to be fun as hell. I will be up all night in the pool/hot-tub untill I get kicked out of there. Maybe hook up with some young chick just starting basic the next day!! They are sooo easy to get with because it is the last dick they'll have for a while :-D Well, untill I get a chance to write again, this is Rhine-0, and Im out of this bitch! I like that^^^ one, it actually sounds like me, I would keep missing the damned thing.  you are: the spin kick! You are dangerous when done in a small space, people are scared crapless of you! Which moshpit move are you? brought to you by QuizillaDie Goths!!! Die!!! Bwahahaha | | Thursday, September 9th, 2004 | | 11:45 am |
Random Rants
Love what is it really, I don't know Is there any truth, or is every girl another hoe I've been looking for love for so many years Over this mad obsession, so many tears I've found my true love after all this time The only problem is that I can't make her mine The only time I see her, is in my dreams To have love in this way is such a tragedy Where's my true love, the one that is for real I know its out there, because "it" I can feel Some day I'll have mine, and you'll have yours too Then we'll celebrate, and drink till we puke. WHERE'S IT AT, WHERE AM I GOING I DONT WANT TO SEE WHAT YOU'RE SHOWING FAT GIRLS NEED TO PUT ON MORE CLOTHS HOT GIRLS NEED TO TOUCH THEIR TOES SUCK MY DICK, LICK MY SACK I'LL STICK IT IN YOUR ASS CRACK Today is a good day. I bought a 512Mb memory card for my cam. I plan on getting another one while I'm at AIT if I have the time. I am going to get a few pics taken while I'm there so I can remember my buddies down there. I miss all of my friends from Basic, and I have no pics of them. That is not going to happen this time damn it. I will get some pics of my buddies from AIT. Only 12 days left till I leave. Partying this weekend. Can't wait. I am drinking chocolate milk right now. I was awake at 4:30 this mornining. I already did dishes and its only 11:30. My eyes are heavy, but im wired cause I had a cup of coffee. Did you like my poems. The first is really thought out, the second was done in like 3 minutes. Hope you enjoy them. LOVE IS NOT DEAD, JUST MISPLACED. IT WILL REAR ITS HEAD AGAIN, THEN STAB ITS FUCKING EYES OUT SO IT CANT SEE TO RUN AWAY. OR CHOPS ITS LEGS OFF AT THE KNEES. | | Wednesday, September 8th, 2004 | | 3:03 am |
just some stuff
Well, nothing much going on right now. Mainly cause its 3 in the morning on wednesday, but im tired and needed to write. I have 13 days till im gone to AIT. Nothing much to say about that besides its about fucking time!! I can't wait to get there and meet all those new people! All those patriotic people, people like me! Speaking of places where there is going to be people.... Saturday I am going to a party. If you know me and want to know about it get ahold of me or just write me on here. All thats asked is that you supply a few bucks or some booze. Thats all thats required. Anybody else feeling bored with life right now? I am, I need something to do. This is why I joined the Army, to not be bored and to serve my country cause I want to. As opposed to by most of my friends, it is a good thing. Maybe not right, in some peoples eyes, but it isn't wrong. Thats for damned sure. If you think it is wrong to fight for the little freedom that you still have, then I think you should die. Atleast then you would no longer have to bitch about not enough freedom, or having to fight for a socialist government and all that bullshit. JUST DIE. It will do a lot of us out here working hard to ensure your safety a much need brake. If you think that the government doesn't do enough for you, join the Army. Or any branch of the military for that matter. Cause then the government will be working for you, and guess what, they pay you to learn! They pay you to have fun, cause thats what it is (most of the time). I love being around my fellow soldiers because we all have the same mentality when it comes to certain things. Thats not because we have been brainwashed, but because we have learned what we are fighting for. Fo most of you that have no idea, you just need to pick up a history book that covers bases of every war that the US was ever involved in. Then you would have a slight idea of what exactly I feel I am fighting for. And if you still don't get what I am fighting for still, then go to Austria, because I don't want you in my country. Just GET OUT. Or STOP IT. Stop the self pitty. Stop the whining, crying about nothing, because there is always something better that you could be doing. Go out and show that you care about our country, show your true colors. If your color happens to be yellow, then DIE. You need to be strung up and shot in my opinion, because to go against your country shouls be considered a crime punishable by death. YOU ARE ALL LUCKY, if I was in charge of making laws, let me tell you what!! There would be a lot less crimes, because if you even spoke bad about our country I'd have your nuts in a noose. Yeah, I know that sounds like a dictatorship, guess what, it kind of is. I would make sure that our country is in good health too. Not just for me but for everyone in the streets. I would make sure that every person that was trying to disgrace the nation would be disciplined, but then taught what we had to go through to gain our freedoms. There would be more freedoms, i would lift all the laws binding drug-use, because if someone wants to kill their body, then let them. We would probably be better off without the ones that kill themselves. well.... goodnight everybody. Current Mood: annoyedCurrent Music: ICP -- Bowling Balls | | Tuesday, August 31st, 2004 | | 4:21 am |
Hacky Sack I have taken up an interest in the sport of hacky sack. This isn't just a fling thing, I am seriously into it and have been playing for years. I figure, why not go to the amature levels and start competing? Anyways, I started a hack club called the New Baltimore Hack-clique. Check out the link, see what it is about. Explore the rest of www.footbag.org if you are interested in playing.
For additional news, I just got a DigiCam, so expect some pics to get up on yahoo.
Seano and Eddie, sorry that I didn't make it over, but you guys came late. I waited untill 5 or so but had to leave to go to a birthday party for my neice. I told my uncle that if you guys weren't there by the time he got in the area to get my aunt that I was going to go with them. GUESS WHAT, you were late. Anyways... I gtg, goodnight all. Current Music: One of these things is not like the other..... |
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